The past month I've kind of been flat. Some might say I've been like that for the past two or three and they'd be right. I haven't been thinking correctly and I've let personal relationships slide and decay - including the most important one of my entire life.
So I got myself thinking. I need to change myself. I need to become better; not only for myself but for the ones I love. They might say this change has come too late, but I figure its better late than never. I have hurt the one I love by staying the same and becoming worse; by doing that I have hurt myself and I must carry those thoughts with me, every day.
So, I formulated a list in my head which I will commit to paper (or in this case, my blog.) I'm going carry it around in my wallet, as well as a small notebook/journal (which I have been doing) to track my progress. Here's the major themes:
- I will not sleep past a double-digit hour for any reason (i.e, oversleep constantly.)
- If I do not have something productive to do, I will find something that is or try to help someone else.
- I will write 1000w a day (for a purpose), minimum. If I am a freelance journalist, I must write every day.
- I will exercise for at least 30min a day. If I'm busy, I will endeavor to find the time to do it.
- If I/we encounter a problem, I will write it down. Then underneath, I/we will write out possible solutions and try them out until one is found. We will render them "non-lethal" and confront them.
- I will be more attentive in what people say. If I find myself struggling to remember or think I am misinterpreting them, I will also write down key points in my notebook to get a grasp on it and repeat it back to them.
- Make concrete decisions after careful consideration. Once I/we have made up my/our minds, I will do whatever we have set our minds to. I will help plan the course of action, reach an agreement on what goals to achieve and endeavor to meet them.
- Not to give up. There are some things in life that can be supremely difficult to navigate and face. But it’s important to realize that even small changes can remedy situations. Every little bit of help counts.
- Grow myself in knowledge, to be more accepting and to be more loving and caring for the benefit of others.
- Stop talking about change; go out, do it and continue to every day.